Insanity Update: Week 2 & Fit Test

Friday, I wrapped up week 2 of Insanity. This morning, I completed my 2nd Fit Test because I hit the two week mark. All last week, I continued to feel like maybe I was out of my league. I spent a lot of time feeling like there was no way I was ever going to be good at this, and a lot of time considering quitting some more. The moves are super challenging for me, ranging from burpees to push-up jacks. The thing is, I can barely do a push-up anyway, but push up and jacks all together? What the heck!The thing is, I can't quit. While I spend almost every workout discouraged with my abilities and upset at how little I can really do, I can't quit. I must complete this. Whether or not it will actually do me any good I have NO idea. Let me tell you what, I have been working by rear off these past 2 weeks and still haven't lost a pound. I am so mad!! I have even been trying to eat well, and that's aside from dripping sweat at 5 A.M. every single morning. I mean really what more do I have to do to actually accomplish something?
So this morning I did my second Fit Test, and I was worried that I wouldn't have any improvements. Much to my surprise, I did improve on almost every move. There were two moves that stayed the same - one of them was "suicide jumps" or what I like to call "burpees". Ya, those are a killer and I'm not getting any better at them. There is a lot of hardcore cardio in the Insanity videos and the Fit Test is no exception. Each exercise is all about speed and power. My improvements were small, but they were still there. I have no measured to see if I have lost any inches, and I don't think I am going to until at least half way through.
I will be taking next week off because we are taking a trip and I am not taking Insanity with me, mind you I plan on being somewhat mindful of my food intake; however it is vacation and I plan on treating it as so. When I return, I will pick up exactly where I left off on the following Monday - and probably crying the whole time! After that week, I will have completed one month of Insanity, and month 2 is supposed to be even harder as the workouts intensify. Someone please talk some sense into me now! How can they possibly get any more challenging than they already are??
On another note, I'm going to keep pushing forward, and some day I will be at least somewhat in shape, and hopefully with a better body to show for it!