Obviously it's been awhile since I've written. So, here's the deal. I'm no longer going to commit to every Wednesday but I'm still going to commit because I need that accountability. My goal is to write every 1-2 weeks.
The truth? Some weeks I didn't do it just because I didn't want to, some because I forget, and some simply because I'm busy!! More truth? I haven't tried that hard, I've been drinking more pop than I should, I've not worked out as much as I should and its been a rough few weeks. Another truth? I've had some things in my life I've allowed to bring me down and I've used those things as a crutch... an excuse... to not stick to what I needed to be doing.
Now I did not completely fall off the wagon, while I've eaten some things I shouldn't and I've slacked BUT I've still been conscious of what I'm doing. Not because I am plowing through some french fries and magically think I'm a pig but I notice almost a habit of being conscious of my portion sizes and even my choices. So sure I might enjoy a SMALL french fry order but I account for it with portion control and making sure I'm not eating like that allllllll the time.
So this morning I stepped on the scale. I've not weighed myself since my last post and I really had a negative attitude, but to my surprise I saw 190. Say it again.. 190!!!!!! That's a total of 14 pounds. Today I wore a cute little shirt and I feel confident and you would be amazed the number of compliments I've received.
My words of truth... are you ready? No one is perfect.. ESPECIALLY ME.. but I keep trying and I keep moving forward and instead of beating myself up I just adjust and keep trying. I'm getting somewhere. It will take me a long time to be where I wanna be, but progress is amazing!! Don't get down.. depressing thoughts will only discourage you and you will reach for a Twinkie and that's OK, eat a Twinkie but don't eat 3 of them and don't follow it up with a donut, a Dr. Pepper, a Snickers, a cookie, and a large pizza. ;)
