I haven't been for a while - a long while. It's not that I don't have much to say, it's that I don't have much to show. I haven't been actively trying to lose weight for some time. Don't get me wrong, I think about it and I want it, but something was missing (like a kick in the rear) to get me acting on it.
So here I am again, starting anew. Let's pretend I haven't done this starting new 42 times already. I have a lot of motivating reasons to lose weight, get healthy, and simply be more fit, but it's HARD! I am not one of those girls that this comes easily to. I know a lot of people that are "naturally skinny", and I know a lot of people that work hard and do great. The truth is, that is my only option - to work hard. I've got to do it. For one, I want to be an example to Madyson. Here is the difference. I don't want her to hear me demeaning my body. I already hear her tell people she is fat. I just want to be an example of a healthy lifestyle, or of a person willing to make changes to get there. For two, I'm attending a dear friend's wedding reception just a couple months from now. I want to be able to buy a "little black dress" and feel comfortable wearing it. For three, well a girl likes to dream. I would like to think that maybe I will be taking my own walk down the aisle (like New Years Eve). I'm there, I'm ready, but it takes two so I'm waiting for my other half to decide he is ready - however I want to be prepared. I want to feel beautiful in that white dress when my day comes. Hopefully that dream will come true soon (*sigh).
So, here's the deal. I am back in action and I am not to be stopped (at least today). I bought myself TurboFire for my birthday. Turbo Fire is a "kickboxing" type work out amongst other things with Chalene Johnson. I've been wanting it for a long time so I decided what better present for my own birthday than a new workout! Yes - I bought myself a birthday gift, get over it. You gotta do what you gotta do. Anyways, TurboFire is a beacbody workout, you can get it online or from any beachbody coach. It's the same place that sells workouts like Insanity, P90X, T25, 21 Day Fix, etc. If you need a beachbody coach I know a few I can hook you up. I really like the accessories of the workout. I just bought the basic set. It comes with a calendar and the DVDs, but I think my favorite part is a book it came with that is labeled Fuel The Fire. It basically talks about your eating and such, but I find this particular book way better than most I've seen and I am going to utilize it a lot I think.
I was successful before. I lost almost 20 pounds at one time a couple years ago when I started this blog. Of course, now I am back to square -2, but I am HERE!! My point is, at least I am here. Even though it is AGAIN, even though I have been here starting over more times than you can count. I AM HERE. I am going to get it right one of these days.
